Give me a newborn any day...
Now don't get me wrong, when Ernie's in a good mood he's a joy to be around - he's talking all the time, saying and doing the cutest little things - but when he's tired/bored/ill/or frustrated... well... this parenting sh*t just got real!
The testing state is in full effect and I fear that the terrible twos every parent speaks of, are on the way, and I'm not even sure that it will end there.
I've seen a few threenagers in action and it isn't pretty!!!
Fear not though - this isn't me announcing that I'm having a nervous breakdown, I'm learning to laugh it off, have a glass of wine (or two), and roll with it.
But it's fair to say that I've felt pretty overwhelmed lately.
I just want to keep thing's as real as I can here - it's not always hearts and emoji kisses, and with blogs and social media, you're almost always going to post the 'perfect' pictures, but it's important to recognise that there are plenty of rough days too.
At this stage in the game it seems like everyone you chat to wants to know if you're planning another one, and that's fair enough - I'm asking friends too.
So I'll be honest, for quite some time now I've been contemplating whether or not we're ready for #2, and just when I think I am, I have a bad day and put the brakes on the idea.
I know I want to have another baby somewhat close in age to Ernie, but the first year and half have been all consuming for me.
All normal stuff, and in the best possible way, but it's taking me a while to build up the strength and resilience I feel I need as a mother to be able to weather the bad times along with the good.
And I've felt so wrapped up in the baby I've got, that I get anxious just thinking about the reality of having a second.
As we approach his 2nd birthday, if things are easing up a bit, I think I could get my head around having another one.
With all that said... now on to the sweet pictures from the last week on our family holiday in Tenerife, that really do make it all worth it...
We stayed in place called Los Realejos - it's a town in the northern part of the island of Tenerife, which forms part of the Canary Islands.
It was a beautiful place to stay, and the owner Alberto provided us with plenty of baby essentials for Ernie.
Ernie developed a great love for the seaside, here he is playing on El Soccoro beach, 200 meters from the villa. I loved the black volcanic sand.
I was really pleased with this Surf Sunsafe Suit from next - for added protection from the sun.
A shameless selfie
Love them or hate them these Crocs were a huge hit for me. I have the hardest time getting this child to wear shoes. Ernie wore these no problem, and they're easy to slip on and off.
I'm forever taking snaps of these two. This view never gets old.
I ran into some pretty crappy airplane and milk drama! So I plan on posting some updated flight and travel tips for families soon.